When betrayed, the obvious choice is to react, to play the hand youвЂ™re dealt with, to take action in a way that will satisfy the temporary discomfort - but this is a hyperborean approach to life. It times like this that the arcanum of Apocalypse is especially valuable. Something that I was unable to bear entered my psychic system, and because it was a shock, and because I lacked the resources to easily categorize it, something within me was working intensely to create a narrative, to develop a new concept so as to be prepared in case the same shock would happen again. I kept spontaneously rehearsing the betrayal and the events leading up to it, re-imagining them in different forms that would have led to different outcomes, fixating on a person to blame. For the entire evening and throughout my attempt to sleep during the night, I experienced the phenomenon that Freud described so well in Beyond the Pleasure Principle. Recently - yesterday actually - I suffered a betrayal, and it traumatized me.

Human apocalypse names